The person you know as eo-per-nex, his real name is Mike, is a close friend of mine. On Wednesday night he tried to kill himself. He is still alive but is in really bad condition and they don't know if he is going to make it. This was on his computer when we turned it on tonight. I haven't changed it.
Please post this to my blog.
I know that most people aren't going to understand why I decided to do what I have done. I'm not going to list out my reasons or in some way attempt to persuade anyone to agree with my reasoning, passed experience tells me not to try. What I will say is this: I am tired, more tired than I have ever felt before in my life and I don't want to feel this way any more. There will be people who will be angry with me for doing this, I hope they don't let that affect how they live their lives.
I have had the opportunity to glimpse parts of peoples lives through their journals/blogs and I want to thank you for allowing me into your world. To those of you who read my posts, I apologize for not being more honest with you. I didn't make up anything I wrote, I just didn't tell the whole story. I hope you will forgive me.
There are a few people I want to say something to individually.
becomingkate – I read you on journalspace and you were the first one to find my blog here. I truly hope things work out for you and your family.
Sacrificial-Doll – You prove that day-to-day life can be interesting and that the Victoria's Secret catalogue is not nearly as good as the real thing.
Drew's Bird – Carla, I hope things go better for you. To me you were the Lioness, no matter where you blogged.
morphinekisses – I liked reading your post because I really liked your attitude towards the stupidity that sometimes defines the human race: fuck 'em if they don't like it or don't get it. You are true to yourself and make no excuses for your attitude. I can't think of a better kind of person to raise a child in the world today.
ctmedz – Robin, you were the first person to welcome me to journalspace. You always offered your support when I was having a tough time, no matter how difficult the thing you were going through. You are one of the strongest people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. I wish I had known you longer.
Lone Groover – I honestly don't remember how I came across you spot on journalspace, but I added it to my favorites list after the first time I read it. After the mess you were dragged through by your ex you still had enough love in you to share it with a woman 5000 miles away.
Doug – Your journal was the first one I left a comment on. I still remember the picture, a black & white of old wooden piles sticking up just above the surface of the lake. That was the first of I don't know how many pictures you posted that I thought were amazing. You have an incredible talent for capturing images that draw people into a world they may not otherwise get to see. A thousand words fall far short of what your images say.
Fake-brunette – I didn't come across your journal until later this past summer after you left a comment on one of my rant posts. You became a pretty regular reader and poster after that and I read you journal as part of my regular daily journal check. After the crash in December I was disappointed when I couldn't find a new blog by you. I was quite happy when I discovered where you were hiding. I wish I could have meet you in person, I have no doubt that you are just as beautiful as I imagined you are, if not more so. I hope you find the peace and happiness that you rightfully deserve.
That's all. I have given one of my friends the login and password for this page and all of my published and unpublished writing. I have given him permission to post whatever he feels should be posted as well as anything thing else he wants to share.
eo-per-nex